This love that’s grown so much for this game, its fucking amazing.. this might be my window out of this town.. out of Downtown South Gate … and being casted as well, another small window perhaps.. I feel it, I got this… there are enough lawyers in this city anyway. (:
Has anyone ever been tired? Not physically tired. Just tired of everything? Like everything everything. Idk where to start, I’m so tired of everything, same routine, same moves, same shit on the radio station, same things everywhere, but not the same motivation or desire. I was tired of myself in high school, I became someone who I wasn’t in honor of the attention and hype. I loved it, but I hated myself, I was tired of it, so now I’m my hardworking and nerdy self once again. I love it.. but I’m tired of school, I’m tired of football, I’m tired of lifting weights I’m tired of going over and over my lines for my script, I’m tired of being so careful now, I’m tired of getting home to no one, I’m tired of not being able to see my little princess thanks to someone who thinks they have all the power in the world just because she’s the birthmom and she was raised in such a pathetic way. I’m tired of practice, I’m tired of these amazing novels, I’m tired of being in this bed, sore as hell and no one to ask me about my day when so much goes on. I’m tired of facing the fact that things with my 3 bestfriends won’t ever be the same again. Did I mention that I’m fucking sick and tired of not seeing my little princess? Fuck all of that court shit, I’m waiting on my miricle from God.. but like I said, I’m waiting on it. Idc about the whole “Family” shit aymore, I did everything possible in the books, AND more. I’m also tired of not getting phone calls from my beautiful little girl and hearing her say “hiiiii… apa.. apa.. el wow wow” and then teaching me up on baby language. but someone thinks their so cool by changing their phone number, I mean, its not like I wanted to talk to Danielle on holidays or on her bday. -_-.. It hurts like fucking hell, but I have to be strong for her right? Have to be a solider like always, for her right? .. but what’s the use of a soldier at war, when he’s already dead? I’m just so tired man.. I barely turned 20 too. Its always my school books, my football and my cars. I’m tired of that… I’m tired, I’m tired, I’m tired.. someone take me back to when my only worry was kicking the football at South Gate High… and choosing between Jack’s or Tom’s with Max and Jani haha.. fuck it, I’m just going to get back to this book and study for the big exam tomorrow… I’m TIRED of studying too. Lol.. but I want to be somebody big.. I don’t think I qualify as a Magic Mike, so I kind of sort of have to put in work with this school crap. See you in a couple of semesters Irvine. #BigBoyPantsTime
Sorry if I have popped up in your timeline and have already annoyed you. I missed and finally appreciate the art of blogging. (:
Interviewer: Why can’t you be alone without Yoko?
John Lennon:But I can be alone without Yoko, but I just have no wish to be. There’s no reason on earth why I should be alone without Yoko. There’s nothing more important than our relationship, nothing. And we dig being together all the time. Both of us could survive apart but what for? I’m not going to sacrifice love, real love for any whore or any friend or any business, because in the end you’re alone at night and neither of us want to be. and you can’t fill a bed with groupies. It doesn’t work. I don’t want to be a swinger. I’ve been through it all and nothing works better than to have someone you love hold you.
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